KONBANWA NA MINNA SAN!

Today, just now, signified the end of my two mind-blasting exam papers.

And more momentous, it marks the start of my super lengthy holidays.

TWO SOLID MONTHS! Or like, almost.

Holiday Spam!

Hmm...what should I tend to?

The only time-consuming phenomenon is for me to find a job.

"What's suitable for me?"



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Eg2 paper wasn't that bad.

It was the only paper that I managed to complete the last question with ease.

I was high on happiness.

But I had a distinct kind of emotion today.

AEL paper was fucked up.

I realized for once that I was idiotic.

Foolish.

Lazy.

Stupid and dumb.

I don't even think I could grab 50/100.

I'm a total failure.

I felt bad.

For the paper.

'Cause I made silly crap although it was a piece of cake when I looked at it again at home.

How did I manage to discourse the paper?

It's a disgrace to myself.

And my siblings in school.

And my lecturers who worked strenuously to stuff the book into my head.

I don't have confidence that I'll pass AEL.

Till then, I'll wait in dismay..

Results on March 19, maybe.

A day before my 18th.

Hope it doesn't tarnish my mood on that particular day.

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Oh well, like the Chinese say: "Put the front feet down, and lift the back feet up. That's how you walk."

It literally means to grab hold of TODAY and let go of YESTERDAY. How your life streams depend on this.

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I'm not really looking forward to my Class Chalet, to be honest.

My siblings, if you're reading this, no hard feelings.

I mean,..

Who doesn't wanna have fun with their friends, right?

Playing, cycling, laughing like there's no tomorrow?

I'm the dark horse.

I'm the black sheep.

I've paid my 5 bucks to chalet.

Now what?

Attend chalet and stone in one of the rooms?

No right?

You guys will likely roam around Downtown East.

Play arcade games, pool, eat, watch movies, cycle, and stuff.

I don't have the cash to do all those, sorry.

I'm not as well to do.

I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth.

In fact I was born with nothing.

It's hard for me to save up cash.

'Cause the cash I save up would likely be my future pocket money to school.

And the reason why I don't like to borrow cash from people is that I am unsure if it will be possible to return it.

Even if it's 5 bucks.

And I am the kind of person who would rather not eat than not paying back what I owe...

...okay when I direct it like this, straightforward people wouldn't understand.

When deciphered, I mean, I must pay people what I owe first. I don't really care whether I eat or not.

Yea..

Well that's me, can't help it right?

I have flaws too many to list.

Many many very the many.

The veranda which the swallow left from, there are two sandals huddled together
Hey, our memories were scattered even to a place like this
Such dearly loved days

I looked up, just like this sky,
Where are those things which never change?

At the yet unseen road that is made misty with my tears
The me who have been standing there, I wonder if I can become strong
Despite that, despite that, a new sun will rise, tomorrow will come
Even I…will surely too

To have things lost, and to gain something
“On that day when you waved your hand with all the calmness you can gather”
I don’t regret it one bit

We who have been torn apart, some day in the future
Lets bloom a lovely, big flower
To have such days, to have such days where I loved someone,
Giving me a farewell gift…

Yes, please believe me...

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